I was obedient and did as he asked. Like I said, Eric was quite a ladies man. He has known her for 20 years. Someone you love has died. As providence would have it, it was a “stranger” on the internet! May you find comfort and peace. Currently you have JavaScript disabled. Who could she really just “spill the beans” with, to get the help she needed? All of these are normal grief emotions, and they are also all emotions that will need to be dealt with and processed over time. No one is perfect. Sheryl Sandberg's Advice for Grieving Rebecca J. Rosen. It is only in this powerful transformation that the excruciating mental and emotional pain that is experienced inside the head, becomes comforted by the heart. You may have shared your loss with a few trusted friends. I’m sure he is watching over you with love. It’s great advice to always to choose love first before judgment. He gave me this gift of spiritual growth and awakening. It is the loss of something that people may not know about, or even if they do know about the betrayal, they might view the hurting person judgmentally. He said he would never leave his spouse (they have never been married, but spent 12 years together and have a little boy) and I said I don’t want to commit to anything either as I was still recovering from my last relationship – perfect recipe for wild desire. Take care. He’d still be working things out with her maybe they’d be married by now and he wouldn’t have been there. I advised Elisa to trust that what happened is for her own personal growth and greatness and instead of being a victim of the situation and this man’s actions, let it serve to strengthen her to be wiser, stronger and transformed as a being, simply because of this experience. Hope you will join us. This loss spurred a grief response in me that I still feel today. Disenfranchised grief is connected to a loss that is unrecognized by society at large. I almost feel his family feels the same way. What? You’re welcome, Karen. Now, of course Elisa’s circumstances might not be the best to share openly, given the potential for gossip and also that a wife and family are somewhere grieving. Blessing To feel heart-felt pain is to feel sorrow and bittersweet, but it flows through. Just a thought. He then got his own place closer to his family and asked me to help him lease some furniture for it. Hugs. Thanks for sharing yourself. About the hurt… In using this opportunity to the fullest way possible, I advised Elisa, for her greatest growth, to open her heart so wide that she could never hurt like that again. He was very charming and irresistible. Individuals with severe grief or complicated grief could benefit from the help of a psychologist or another licensed mental health professional with a specialization in grief. My heart cries out in sadness and longing, but I know in the midst of my grief, You are with me. Everyone knew that. What a way to find out! In these situations, as illusions shatter, the grief process quickly becomes convoluted, as the truth becomes plainly revealed. Perhaps it’s a part of their life experience, perspective and growth. Should I just ignore his spirit? Confidentiality is essential when you enlist third parties, and therapists are a good alternative for this reason. To honor your grief is not self-destructive or harmful, it is life-sustaining and life-giving, and it ultimately leads you back to love again. I didn’t know why I wasn’t hearing from him and I wanted to respect his space . Sending you love no matter where you are xx, Your words are beautiful, Julie. Grieving…How to Grieve the Sudden and Unexpected Loss of a Loved One, https://griefandmourning.com/connect-with-your-departed-tele-class. I went through it, and although I still miss Eric – I am stronger and in a place I could not imagine being – a place of peace. Issues are deferred and not fully addressed. We are all here to learn and grow. Commentary- Sometimes It does happen that those of us left behind, find out hidden information about our deceased loved one, after the fact… and it can be devastating! When I saw his obituary and that his fiancé spoke I was still hurt but thankful I wasn’t there because that would be so inappropriate. Today, after all the mind drama and emotions, he is still loved just as much as when he was on this earthly plane.”, “I don’t let this eat me up – but it’d be nice if he said, “You’re forgiven, Elisa!” Can you ask him please? I woke up at 2 or 3 am every morning and could not go back to sleep. We’ve worked together for the last 6 years, but the magnetic connection between us got the better of us only around 1,5 years ago. The loss of a living friend feels especially relevant right now. These situations are not just about sex. I was also terrified to get all that baggage and I was scared to feel jealous with him for the rest of my life, felt scared to work on our already existing trust issues, so we were both slow and cautious in a way, yet explosive and wild each time we had any privacy. Perhaps “the truth” is the best thing you can give her. I met someone in 2013 – there was a connection that developed into more – for both of us- over time. I accept that. I don’t know how to mourn this. These virtues and being honest with yourself on avoiding this kind of agony should be employed at this time. :)”, And just like Elisa requested, I asked Eric at the end of this post, who said this: If you don’t take and use difficult experiences, they will take and use you. I’m glad you found this post. I came along only 3 years ago – they’ve known each other 20 years. Revell. He was my comfort, heat, passion, and absolutely irrational wild love. Here, you’ll learn the difference between grieving your loss and letting go of someone you love. There are so many people that have to grieve alone for various reasons and I know this story will help them. I lost my loved one unexpectedly last week. Perhaps Eric, a great being, was just acting out his part in the grand scheme of things. Back up a bit… Did she say to open up our hearts so wide that we could never hurt again? Reasons such as children, assets, or prestige may not make a formal change in their lifestyle acceptable. Click here for instructions on how to enable JavaScript in your browser. “Of course, I still miss him – only those who have loved and lost through death will understand. Reprinted with permission from the author. You may have to endure the additional sadness of not saying goodbye. And although Eric may have exhibited some character defects in some of his actions that had the potential to hurt others, he did deeply love his wife and family, and all who he loved, in the way that he did, and he wanted to protect that. Not even second best at times… he worked with a woman he used to have a crush on 10 years ago and I always had a feeling he still has a very soft spot for her. I read somewhere that spirits take on the same personality as their human form – if that is true, wow! Language: English. After his death, I was a wreck. Each time I ran from him telling him I deserve better he hunted me down with his wild energy that I could never resist. Thank you so much for your prayers – please know they helped! As a spiritual opportunist, I firmly believe in taking everything life throws at us and turning it into something extraordinary. Romantic love is … She was very happy.”, “Today, I took a day off and Nancy and I were smsing and sharing our memories of him. We’ve never managed to travel, make our fantasies come true, and I feel like all those drams are still so alive in my heart. The lost pet was unique, and it’s okay to spend time mourning the loss of that uniqueness. I told who knows in 3 minths youll pribably be in another realtionship and i still just be his side chick. Not sure what it all means, but strange coincidences I think. Even though this hurt like hell, and she balled her eyes out for hours after meeting with her, Elisa was there for Nancy in her grief and never let on that she too, was close to Eric. And when they do, they will require attention. RELATED: A 5-Step Plan To Stop Being The Mistress And Finally Walk Away From An Affair. But given the depth of your insight, wisdom and compassion, I’m sure you will be able to help this woman in some way, if it happens. Let’s begin to love ourselves better. If only LOVE could ALWAYS come first! And they will. A death. During a Skype session with Elisa, while she was naming all of the amazing qualities that Eric possessed, I heard a very deep man’s voice agree with her accolades of him. That took courage. Apart from sexual heat and romantic experiences together, we’ve spent a lot of time together at work, he’s encouraged me and advised me on career decisions, made me laugh every day and we spent evenings talking to each other, texting, sending each other pictures. I missed his funeral and I tried reaching out to friend that was really close to him to help grieve but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her what was to him. I do not know the autopsy results. Your email address will not be published. A secret love can make life bearable for some people because they're not getting their needs met in their public relationship. I’m so sorry for your loss, Brooke. There was really no way to see each other any sooner. I read everything I could on life after death, on spirituality, and I started daily meditations in January this year (2016). We shared so many hot moments, pictures, fantasies. When love ends, be it the first mad romance of adolescence, the love that will not sustain a marriage, or the love of a failed friendship, it is the same. He paid an Uber to have me go up to a furniture store near one of his old apartments and assure me I would use my credit to get it but he would pay on it. She said she couldn’t, due to some problems she had to step back and asked him to stop contacting her since January of 2015. When the person you love is ill and in need of care, you also have the loss of not being able to be there for them. This will most likely go up within the next week on the navigation bar. He passed away so suddenly and left me and his spouse to deal with this. I called her – yes, on her birthday. Unexpectedly, from either a heart attack that caused his car to crash as he lost control, or from the crash itself. “Please accept my condolences on the loss of your spouse. Grieving the Loss of a Love: How to Embrace Grief to Find True Hope and Healing After a Divorce, Breakup, or Death Social norms often dictate the way things “should” be and how a person “should” be living their life. If only LOVE could come before judgment. Stories, poems and tributes to the loss of a loved one that are filled with declarations and promises of a love that will never be forgotten. You said you feel guilty. Thank you for sharing your feelings. There are times when his name is mentioned, my hair stands on end. I also became the subject of office gossip. He said he hasn’t talk to her in 2 months at that time and that he was only hooking up with me right now because he didn’t want to be in a relationship. I would steer you to the happier times you had together with your Love, instead of regret. Think of all the pain one would feel after suffering a loss, but could not share, because they do not feel safe to tell their friends and family, because of the fear of judgment. Click here for instructions on how to enable JavaScript in your browser. You are certainly NOT alone. Throughout the summer I refused to look at social media and he assured me wasn’t on social media anymore. I am wracked with guilt for what I did. In order to post comments, please make sure JavaScript and Cookies are enabled, and reload the page. … It didn’t take long until looking into each other’s eyes had become euphoric – full of relief, hope, magic, depth. “After his passing, I started to ask questions about life, purpose, God, afterlife and I wanted so badly to know if he was ok. When Elisa contacted me for help after “her friend”, Eric, unexpectedly passed, like so many other people, in my years … Like grieving the death of a loved one, the grief comes in waves. It started as a highly sexually charged relationship – he was the first one to show me I enjoyed being controlled and I loved him being dominant and caring at the same time. He went to her wedding and years later, asked why they didn’t marry each other. Thank you Jade. After Elisa’s secret lover, Eric, suddenly and unexpectedly passes away, she faces the pain, guilt and grief of her loss, alone. I’m not the jealous type and yet our setting made me feel so weak and insecure. I say, “Let the heart heal it, the head will only ruminate… and ruminate… and ruminate.”, Although death is part of life, we miss the physical stuff; the hugs, kisses and being able to reasonably communicate with each other. A breakup between two secret lovers is further complicated because many times, you are not given the opportunity to express your anger and resolve your feelings. I couldn’t understand why I loved someone who could not settle or felt that my love was enough. Know that I have been praying for both you and Nancy for your grief to be brief. He was so stressed and worried about hurting everyone, but never considered he’ll hurt us this way. I know there is meaning behind everything even though it feels so unfair and devastating. What sort of quack gives license to the mope-fest that is the tragic loss of cake? Best wishes. I would be interested in learning more about the individual sessions and classes. You see, like anyone who fears being judged by others, and the added pain it can bring to an already difficult situation, Elisa was hesitant to tell me that Eric was not just her friend. “After his passing, I found out that I was not the only one. Secret relationships can complicate your life. But, after all the grief and lamenting, rise. We spoke, and she was relieved that she could share about their “close friendship” with me. Due to all of this, many people are grieving the loss of a loved one or simply the seeming loss of humanity.. Xo, I felt like you were writing my life down, this is very difficult to go through … ((hugs)). Elisa continues: Yes, it hurts badly now and will continue to hurt … but go through the process, don’t fight it – cry, feel the hurt. If I did, I would have left because I deserve better. However, knowing what other people have and do secretly grieve as part of their divorce will help you to ferret out all that you’ve lost. Seeking out a grief group or individual therapy can also provide an important outlet and guidance for navigating the emotional journey of grieving the loss … “When someone you love dies, and you’re not expecting it, you don’t lose her all at once; you lose her in pieces over a long time — the way the mail stops coming, and her scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in her closet and drawers. And besides, it seems quite intuitive and symbolic with all the water streaming to the ground. How To Cope With The Ending Of A Secret Affair, A 5-Step Plan To Stop Being The Mistress And Finally Walk Away From An Affair, 32 Strength Quotes About Starting Over When You're Ending A Relationship Or Following A New Life Path, 15 Signs You're Stuck In A Soul-Sucking, Toxic Relationship, Beware! I’m sure that this is a very difficult time for you. For them, the affair is worth the risk because ending their commitment is not feasible. I feel cheated and cheap. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I’m so thankful to have found this blog and that I am not alone. “For more than a week now, I have been feeling his energy around me, he’s in my head, in car plate numbers, in my emotions, and then I got your email.”, “How have I grown? Could it be that my spirit guide was leading me into this? Then, he was taken from me. I had leased furniture for him and put myself in a bind doing it. You are not alone. Alas, it’s the end of “working late” together. Most people feel some sort of guilt after a loved one has passed. “It was her sign”, she said, that he still thought of her. No valley is as vast as grief, no journey as personal and life changing. I am going through this. I know it took courage to open up and share what you went through. There are many others who have endured this kind of agony. 15. What I mean is… she gave me the “safe” story first, while she tested the waters. While grief is a natural process, I cry, I am in a daze etc – it is the guilt I find so hard to deal with, that it is killing me.”, “See, he was the only man I dedicated myself to for three and a half years, and my mind and energy was always hardwired to wondering who he was texting or talking to now? Not long, maybe half and hour, sometimes more. He is attracted to beauty, sometimes I felt like he was thinking naughty things about any woman in heels, dark hair and hourglass figure. Now it really takes some super skills, as it’s not so easy as before, because it’s different.). No one is immune. In this way, love is both the cause and the antidote.” – Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph. I feel like I’ve inspired him to finally start looking for an apartment where he can start his new life. The person you lost filled a need that was not being met, and replacing that vacuum is difficult. It sounds like this is the kind of person he was. Then, when the news resurfaced again, I asked and he said, nothing; Just friends, ex-colleagues. I believe I’m the first one he cheated with as we were very open with other, and he did tell me openly that he admired and enjoyed women’s company throughout the years spent with his spouse – he’s a very sociable person. I didn’t tell her we were more than close friends. That was just him, but I still got jealous! No more weekend fuckfests at the Motel 8. We both agreed that for him and me to have a chance to build a healthy relationship, he needed to sort out his home life first and it had to be about him, not about us. (And we thought it was hard when they were still alive on this plane? I am so incredibly sad. The experience and pain you have suffered may bring you the wisdom you will carry the rest of your life! Copyright©2011-2018 Jade Kramer/AscensionHealingTherapies. I called other days it would go straight to voicemail. Big, warm hugs to you. 13. I haven’t gotten it up on the site yet, but I will be offering affordable sessions soon if you have any interest. Hello, Amy. For the last 3 months I saw twice a week every week which we were intimate every time and talked everyday on the phone which was the nature of our relationship over the years I knew. Elisa is not alone, there are many who hide in the shadows, for whatever reasons, as they grieve their loss. Required fields are marked *, Check here to Subscribe to notifications for new posts. Thanks for having the courage to share your voice in this. The tables have been turned. Learning to cope with this loss is not easy, and there are times when you will need to engage counselors or confidants to help. Here is the link I just posted. Last night I watched the movie “About Time” for the third time, please watch it if you haven’t seen it yet. To feel conceptual pain is to feel stuck and tormented. A secret relationship, such as an affair, is a prime example. I recommend the shower. Publication date. That one person o tried to left a picture on her page of him texting her about the “crazy ass women in his life” which would include me so I thought she knew about me but she didn’t. I like the comments about feeling your pain in your heart and the healing that resides there. He told me not to do that and that he was embarrassed that that he made that grand gesture just for it not to work out. I text him stuff that was going on with me I didn’t hear back from him. The suffering and loneliness can weigh heavily and living a “normal” life may be intolerable without help. 14. So, so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your testimony Elisa I am going through the same thing right now only the man I loved died a month ago and I only recently found out 2 days ago. They ended up separating in early 2017 and I know the cheating was an issue because he would change numbers almost every month at that time and then put of the blue text me if she contacted me to not answer or talk. By the way, in one of my first messages from him, it was “Stay grounded.”, “You know Jade, I sometimes think that he gave me a very special gift through his passing. 20. I unblocked him last year in June 2016 and found out he was in a serious relationship for 2 years and had been a 3 before that one. Of course you feel alone. I blame the giant crevasse that we call the political divide. This article was originally published at John Cappello. When Elisa contacted me for help after “her friend”, Eric, unexpectedly passed, like so many other people, in my years of advising people, she didn’t quite give me the full story. Depending on what the secret is, you may feel any number of emotions ranging from anger, guilt, blame, shame, or confusion. Let me know if you are interested in either. I used to leave the office late because he was such a workaholic and he wanted me to be like him. But, we spoke on the phone every work day! After all, he was gone. Sometimes things just happen the way they do. This is natural. I sense him around me. We fell in love. He gunned down 2 minutes form his home at 1am in the morning. In her own words, and with Elisa’s permission, I share parts of her emails. I honestly am still very unhappy and this experience with him has made me more wary of men. Although Elisa was, I’m sure, curious, I was quite impressed that she was kind and brave enough to be there for Nancy; the “other woman”, who thought she was going through her grief process in secret and all alone. In the end, I was able to heal the grief I experienced from the death of a secret love by faithfully turning to the very man I had promised to be faithful to and I couldn’t be more grateful for it. Grieving in Secret After Elisa’s secret lover, Eric, suddenly and unexpectedly passes away, she faces the pain, guilt and grief of her loss, alone. I don’t even know what think anymore!”. This is not your fault, but griever’s always like to go there. We all get to go through this life and we do the best that we can in any given moment. You need to know that you are not by yourself, and you can find people who will help you without judgment. 210 pages. When there is a loss, this deferment until the next meeting is not possible. He lived in the broken home, cared for his depressed spouse and loved her, but he was not happy. I am currently married and have been having marital difficulty for a few years. I am also grieving in secret. I was elated. The big lesson, opportunity and invitation here is not whether Eric will forgive her, but whether she can forgive herself. He was my first love. I left it at that.”, “At his funeral, Nancy did not turn up. I am now doing a spiritual course and have plans to go on a spiritual retreat when I (or my guides) find one.”, “In that span of time, I have also done an energy healing course after I felt the healing effects it had on me. It’s time to learn how to stop grieving and start letting go of your loved one. The “Being Your Own Medium” series is now scheduled for the month of May. Would love to privately contact you. Jade, you write so beautifully, thank you for all you do to help those who are grieving heal xo. Either way, bonding is an area that is difficult to solidify because spending time with your partner is stressed. If you have lost them, you must make decisions based on your best judgment for coping and seek help from non-judgmental sources. Two days later, I called up to ask why, of course in a gentle way. So irrational and so alive. It's a double loss because they're alive, but you are denied their attention and the ability to help them. The grief of divorce is different for everyone. Grief is natural and goes hand in hand with love and care. Kate Gilgan is a writer, mother and hesitant adventurer. The best thing, which I miss so much are those calls. So now, although Elisa still loves Eric very much and forgave him, she was still feeling guilty at what she had done, and was madder than hell at him for what he did, as well. Perhaps it has protected us from something inevitably more traumatic. Few losses are as painful as the death of someone close. I loved him so much. You … Don’t Overthink. Just when it hurts the most, and just when you are sure your heart will break from the weight of the pain… open it further to ensure that it does! Please keep in mind that we lived 15 hours away from each other and were at a shared location one weekend during the summer. In 1989, American Counseling Association member Kenneth Doka, who has written numerous books on grief and loss, established the phrase disenfranchised grief, which he defines as grief that is experienced by those who incur a loss that cannot be openly acknowledged, publicly mourned or socially supported. We had a secret love affair for years after reuniting later in life. , I am Elisa. Please go easy on yourself. I often wonder if I could have actually left my marriage and made a life with him, if I could have changed the course and saved his life. Who are we to say? Whatever you do, be sure to take extra good care of yourself during this time. “Oh, if you reconcile, you must show love and understanding to your spouse right now. Let yourself feel grief, joy, love, disappointment – whatever feelings were there. I am ashamed to say that I crafted ways to get him to stop contacting and getting close to women, but it did not work. Keep in touch. Grief typically progresses through several stages.If you can’t openly mourn, though, it’s hard to proceed through these stages in a productive way. And the guilt… Coulda, shoulda, woulda, but didn’t. We sure talked A LOT!”, “When we met, we just clicked and there was this superb chemistry between us. I am experiencing one of the most tragic and debilitating personal losses of my life, and I can’t outwardly grieve. Trying not to interrupt her, but hearing this man on our call, I was anxious for a break in the conversation to ask her a question. I feel so much guilt in so many ways. And that those who are down-trodden and forlorn can come to us to be comforted with compassion and love. “I am a divorcee, and was pretty happy with my life before him, but he won me over with his charm, his wit, his words and his intelligence. I know I tried to do too many things at once – I was running full speed earlier on but now, I am home in my body. My thoughts and prayers are with you.” This message validates the loss and the grief that your acquaintance must be experiencing without sounding too pushy or … I saw and was intimate with him the evening before he died. Yes, I did! Problems always develop between people. I assume that my marital status was intimidating – he didn’t know of my troubles. Rise above those who’ve hurt you. When you decided to make the adult decision to have a secret love, you accepted the consequences it brought with it. Furthermore, you may not be able to openly grieve with others in the way you need to express. Also, another option that you might be interested in is one of my online classes, “Navigating the Emotional Waters of Grief.” My classes are still fairly small and the participants get so much out of a group/class setting where they can talk freely about what’s up with no one to judge them. Please Jade, how can I do that and how do I know if he has?”, “So now you know the true story. Brooke, If you are interested in my upcoming class series, Connect With Your Departed? https://griefandmourning.com/connect-with-your-departed-tele-class A few years ago, I heard news about him and a married woman, Nancy, but that was before we became a couple. I know this sounds counter-intuitive, but when you do this… when this really happens… you will have made the journey from your head to your heart. I cannot stop thinking about him and what could have been. Over 10 years of knowing him I gave him money almost all the time. The journey through grief is different for all of us … we all take our own path. And I’ve been crying for a week now! We danced around our attraction all three years. RELATED: 32 Strength Quotes About Starting Over When You're Ending A Relationship Or Following A New Life Path. And that being LOVE, before judgment will make a world of heavenly difference! John Cappello is a natural psychic medium who has been in practice for over 25 years. I know I did that a lot. I still had my insecurities I thought he’s probably hooking up with other women and that I was just his bad habit or fetish for him but I shared so much of my pain with him for the first time in the last 2 years even though I wouldn’t say it I felt like he was truly my friend. 16. No more furtive texting on their secret phones. Due to religion, she married someone else but stayed emotionally connected with him all this time. 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